Wilderness Days
Poet Jan Richardson writes these lines.
I am not asking you
to take this wilderness from me,
to remove this place of darkness
where I come to know
the wildness within me,But send me
tough angels,
sweet wine,
strong bread:
just enough.
The theme of wilderness remains consistent in many of the God stories we know and love, like
Moses chasing sheep out by himself
The Jews wandering in the wild for 40 years
John the baptizer sharpening his message in the desert
Jesus facing Satan and inaugurating his ministry out in the empty places
Paul, after being struck blind, waits alone not knowing what's next
God is a master of meeting his people in the wilderness.
When we think of wilderness we must disabuse ourselves of the notion of being out in the woods with the friendly forest creatures and babbling brooks and soaring vistas. The wildlands of the bible are places where there is no water to drink, no shelter to be found, no food that will not spoil, and few creatures that will not harm. Wilderness places are those of desperation, and some of you reading this today feel this kind of wilderness might as well be your permanent mailing address.
The wilderness should not be taken lightly. We can easily hang descriptive words on it like: harsh, lonely, desolate, painful, anxious, depressed, and lost, that all wrap themselves around the idea of the wildlands. These are the places we try to avoid and seek an exit from as soon as possible; but if we have eyes to see and ears to hear, these places are also where the most rich times with God can be discovered.
In the wilderness, believers learn to trust in a Father who knows what is going on and purposes to use it all in building a life worth living. The desert to Jesus is familiar territory, so his followers know we have a Savior who has endured the same hardships we face and goes before us so we can follow with confidence into our beyond. The Spirit encourages and even steps in to pray for us when the words won't come as we traverse deserts that seem to have no trails to follow.
It appears that God loves the wilderness, not for the hardness of the times, but for the sweetness of the growth it has potential to foster. Lots of stuff can propel us into the wilderness like disease, death of a loved one, betrayal by a friend or mate, reversals of fortune, and on and on. These are the times we would never choose to retrace, but because of the lessons learned about real life and the mercy and closeness of God, would not exchange. I've danced with cancer a couple of times and know the fear of the unknown and the dread of the possible future, but it was in those days that I sensed Jesus like never before. Stripped of self-sufficiency and pleading for mercy brought into stark relief my relationship with a God who is closer than I ever imagined, and essential if I were to go on. No person alive is immune to desert trek times, it comes with the price of admission and carries potentially life-changing (for the good) possibilities.
God meets people in the wilderness, and they always emerge...changed. People just like you.
When I first read Richardson's poem, I liked it. But as I pondered the message, I would add a line at the end of the first stanza that might read something like, "and the close mercy of you," because in the wilderness I not only get a good view of my life but I also find Jesus easier to see and talk with and walk with through my mess. It is there that the noise of the world I inhabit is turned down so I can hear myself and hear the whisper of the Spirit, reminding me that I am his beloved. In the deserts of my life, what is essential comes to the front while what I saw only yesterday as important shrinks to its proper size.
God meets his beloved in the wilderness. It remains a place of meeting up, not casting out.
I do so agree with the last stanza of the poem since it is an honest plea for help from the One who will surely give it. I like "tough angels" since the unseen world around us is real and a wise ask is for strength from God. The next two on the list, "sweet wine, strong bread," are the practical needs in front of us to have enough strength to get up and walk through...again...the desert of my today. The final words, "just enough" falls in line with the ways of God in the desert. Remember when the Israelites were trekking and God provided the manna? It would last for just the day and would spoil if left for tomorrow. Daily dependence is the point. Just enough, not too much. Just enough for this day and this challenge and this opportunity.
God meets followers in the empty places with just enough to face with strength what they face today.
If you find yourself today in a dry and lonely place, take heart. You follow a God who loves you and has not and never will forget you. The trials of this world are hard, but Jesus is in the midst of it with you and is building through your life a formidable life of faith, and has gone through his desert to prepare a place for you, forever. And this experience offers lessons for growth learned nowhere else.
If you read this and wonder why you are unscathed by wilderness times, stick the message of this note in some crack of your memory. There will likely come a day when you wake up to see nothing but sand and sun and not much else to help. There you will meet up with the God who loves you if you will choose to see him.
God meets people in the wilderness. People just like you.
How about music for the day
...and a couple of funnies
Two friends are talking over lunch on an outdoor patio.
"So what are you doing for summer vacation?" one asks.
The other one replies, "I want to go to Italy again, like last year."
The first asks, "Wow! You went to Italy last year?"
The other answers, "No, but I wanted to."
__________
Realizing that their home just wasn't big enough with the new baby in the house, Little Johnny's parents discussed moving to a bigger one.
Little Johnny sat patiently listening to his parents, then piped in,
"It's no use. He'll just follow us anyway."